Birthday #31
Well, here it is, birthday number 31.
And what have I learned over the last year? I think I’ve learned quite a bit. I’ve learned
about me
…I am actually capable of being happy, contrary to my belief a year ago.
…I’m not afraid to experiment.
…I’m not really a bad person, even if some people try to tell me that I am.
…I can do things spontaneously.
…I can be romantic.
…I miss my family.
about people
…someone may say something that may seem insignificant at the time, but in reality they mean a whole lot more.
…there’s always going to be someone out there that wants to stick the knife in just that little bit deeper.
…some people can really surprise you in unexpected ways.
about happiness
…that money doesn’t guarantee happiness (or, more correctly, the corollary is truer - lack of money doesn’t guarantee unhappiness)
…you can find happiness in unexpected places, and sadness where and when you least expect it.
about work
…to love what I do for a living, again.
…that business isn’t as hard, and is much harder, than I anticipated and that business banking is a fucking con.
…that taxation is a bitch (no wonder accountants are reputed to have no life)
…that telephones don’t bite, regardless of how harsh the ringer is.
…I am actually good at my job.
…I really don’t know the first thing about design, but I know what I like.
about “stuff”
…that I don’t really give a flying fuck about possessions.
…that I have drunk far too much coffee and smoked far too many fags in my life so far.
…that Sharp make complete bollocks electronics, and that Dixons are the scourge of the consumer world.
…that a suit is not all evil, but neither is it a panacea for stupidity.
…that I know a lot more than I thought, and a lot less than I want to.
…that books mean more to me than I realised.
…I really want my blue hair back.
about love
…that thinking I was in love, and really being in love are two very different creatures.
…that there’s always going to be someone out there that wants me for who I am.
…to fall in love, really, truly, completely.
Perhaps, by this time next year, I’ll have learned more. Perhaps I’ll be even happier than I am as I write this.